joanna feels better tdy. yayness. at least i slept a little more. yawnz. hmmm lemme see. i was supposed to list activities for e week. e more prominent ones would b friday. e rest are like just mugging for bio test which was on friday. friday kinda sucked. had bio test which im so sure to fail now. and later even had gp test later. then went for e table tennis match thingy n arranged to meet binggie there. and when we were on our way, IT FREAKKING POURED OK. my shoes were so soaked i could practically rear fishes inside-.- FINALLY reached e stadium. it was not very crowded.. i couldnt catch any ball at first. so to hell wif it. met binggie den after tht realised TAN TIFEN WAS THERE TOO. hahahaha <3<3>

then binggie n i went to meet sarah n jaslin(: went to cafe melvado's which was near coro. had rather nice food as usual. cam whored a little. JUST A LITTLE. haha. and jaslin went off. den e 3 of us walked arnd e area, including hc. this time binggie was BETTER at being a guide. haha. sarah seemed rather interested(surprisingly). ahahaha. then finally went home. haha have i ever said how much i love sarah chan n tan tifen?? for e past few weeks i din tink they were tht impt anymore since we haven met after such a long time, but tht day tht kind of closeness came back(: n im loving it. it'll be really nice if we could just hang out like tht everyday. somehow we just didnt when we were in sec sch(cuz we werent that close til near o's).life's always toying wif us somehow. but i'm glad they're my besties now all e same :D

yesterday i was at e carnival. it was quite lousy man. btu e gd thing is everything's free, e henna e manicure n e games. so i got henna done. thats it. haha. wth rite. last night samuel called me cuz he thot he saw me at MOS. ermz. i swear i wasnt. lol it wasnt me. today was tas day. well sort of. i mean, wif TAS peeps. sunday is official TAS day. haha. went jurong east. then changed plans of ice skating to kbox instead(sorry colin). was quite high. hahaha dancing n all. i was 'quiet' at times, but i wasnt exactly emo-ing la. i was jus.. well.. just sorting my thoughts. there were points during then i rlli felt like i lost it or something. lost control n wanted to just disappear, like die. I DNNO WHY. (ok i do know why, BUT I'M NOT TELLING). to put it simply, i've lost control of my life. how i feel, how i do things, just basically being me. i can't control me being me anymore. it just sucks u know. just like othello. he kills desdemona n himself when he couldnt control his life anymore. it's like u lose control, u lose everything. WATS WRONG WIF ME. i've always been rather dominant in my life, n now it's like i grasp nothing but air. and this is sucha bad time. A lvls coming n all. in jc, i can't afford to lose control. it's like i want something i can't get n i'm screwed up over it. wtf is tht man? since when do i give a damn anyway??

yea so when i was unusually quiet today, i'm just trying to sort things out n TRY to gain control( which i have not yet done n dun tink i will in e near future). so colin, pls dun emo cuz i LOOK like i'm emo. cuz im not. (: i tink ur scarier than me when ur emo. and for now, all i can do is patiently wait till something miraculous happens, or hope everything passes asap. of course, mug for chem test too. LOL. ciao!